I thought when we moved here, things would just be so easy since hubby would work a set schedule, and he'd be HOME for once. Wrong. I am coming to find that I am even more overwhelmed here in this house. We were established back in TN. We had made friends, and home was HOME. Here, this house still doesn't feel like ours. I mean, it's not.. We're just renting. The house is OK for now, but doesn't really suit our needs as a family of 5. Our youngest son is getting worse every day with his ADHD, and I just feel so out of place here.
Our neighborhood is beautiful, and quiet. All the neighbors are nice, but I'm just not used to feeling so confined. We had a big yard before, and only one house close to us, and we got along with those neighbors very well. I don't know anyone here, and truthfully, I'm not sure I really want to make friends. We're probably only going to be here a couple of years, and I have so much on my plate that I really don't think making friends is going to fit in right now.
We also started selling it works.. It's a great product, and I'm enjoying it. But I just have too much going on. I have so much I want to do, and I'm feeling extremely overwhelmed trying to do it all. So, it's time to make some changes. As much as I enjoy making bows, it's come to a point where it's more work than fun. I have decided that I will not buy anymore supplies. Once I run out of what I have, that's it. I'll probably still make some for friends that ask, and of course for my daughter, but I think having the extra time I would have been spending working on orders, will help me in the long run.
I have just been really depressed since we got here. Mostly during the day when hubby's gone and I'm trying to juggle it all. I had really talked all of this up in my head, and now that we're here, I'm realizing it's not that simple. It's not just smooth sailing now that we're somewhere that hubby won't have to leave for long periods of time. Ultimately, I need to start putting myself somewhere on the list of importance. Everyone has what they need, and lots of what they want. Why can't I let myself be happy, too?
