He's been back from the treatment center for a week and a half now. Starting the day after he got home, we were right back to where we were before he left. It's been like that pretty much every day since. He's either completely mean to everyone, or he's ignoring us. He completely neglects me as his wife. I take a lot of the verbal abuse he dishes out, and let go, and walk away. But after so long of doing that, I fire back. I can't live like this. Where I'm either being verbally abused, or completely neglected. This is not the man I married, not even close. But where do I go from here?
I have been supporting him and his career for over 4 years, and raising our children pretty much on my own that entire time. How on earth can I find a job that supports me and all 3 kids alone? Yes sure, there's child support.. IF he pays it. I don't have any fight left in me. Sometimes I just want to lay down and play dead. I don't know where to go from here. I have never been so lost and confused in my life. After all this time supporting him in his career, and putting up with the deployments, I am left with an empty shell of a man, who I am starting to despise.
